A Soliloquy

 

Shiho Miyano is one of the main characters, besides Shinichi, in the DC (Detective Conan) universe. She was first introduced in Anime eps 129 (the Girl from the Black Organization and the University Professor Murder Case). She is the second daughter of Miyano Family, younger sister of Akemi Miyano (ex-girlfriend of Akai Shuichi) who died after being shot by Gin. She was raised under a Black Organization environment with the code name Sherry. She is very smart, and if I am not mistaken, she graduated from college at age under 15 years old and then she leads the research of APTX 4869 (a fictional toxin and derivative of an experimental of unknown purpose) to replace her parents’ legacy. After Gin killed Akemi without telling the reason, she stopped the research and was labelled as a traitor. When she waits to be prosecuted, she takes APTX 4869, the same pill Gin given to Shinichi, then was shrunk into a child with the name of Ai Haibara. She had been too long in the BO, she can smell the aura of members and it makes her trembling once BO members approach her. Now, she is living with Prof. Agasa and being Conan’s partner to solve some cases.

After watching the new movie, The Scarlet Bullet, I have to say I love Haibara more and more. I am very disappointed with the plot in which I thought that it would showcase more about Akai Family’s respective characters but turns out it highlights Haibara’s intelligence. Even Mary appears for like 10 minutes only. I do not know whether I should be happy or not. For some people, Haibara is not a girl’s type of society because she is not cheerful, quiet, mysterious, and stiff. However, she is very strong and she really doesn’t have any happiness moments at all. Imagine, being raised by her parent’s killers, being left by her only family, Akemi, and right now is chased by BO, waiting to be killed. She finds a convenience by living with Prof. Agasa and being friends with Detective Boys. I guess she has this slight feeling toward Shinichi as he always protects her and even makes Vermouth promises to not kill her. Unfortunately, Shinichi was destined with Ran L.

I love how she can handle the dangerous situation in a very calm behavior. Other people will scream out loud and panic, but she is very calm and thinks about what she can do. She is really good at collecting some information that Conan often requests her to help him with it. I really hope Gosho will make a special chapter about her family. Remember, her family is a foundation and core of the story in DC. I am tired of fillers and please focus on the main plot instead of giving an absurd story. It’s getting boring and boring like no ending. My only request to Gosho is that please give Shiho a happy ending instead of making her dead in the end. That girl never experienced happiness and always had a miserable life. I want her to be happy in the end, even without Shinichi or any pairs as I am sure she deserves more and more. I applaud her in the closing scene of the Scarlet Bullet in which Ran hugs Conan and Shiho only can smile in the back. Knowing she did everything to help Conan and Ran got a hug and thanks from Conan while she only gets a waving. She always acts so cool even when she gets jealous. SHINICHI IS A DUMB I SWEAR.  Please, shine more, Shiho :”) 

When I looked at the title, I had this feeling of low interest because I thought I was too old to read this? Guess, who ended up buying this anyway. I still remember when I looked upon Shopee, one of the e commerce’s, I had a confusion about choosing another book to buy. I finally bought Little Women after thinking for such a long time to buy the Indonesian version or the English version. However, buying one book will be cost more than two books in one shipment in order to cover the shipping fee, right?

For me the title is self is too straightforward but thankfully the book cover is pretty cute. When I first read chapter one, typical, it was talking about a dream in which many writers of self-development books usually write. I feel more interested in the next chapter though. This book guides us to be “successfully managing life at 20ish” starts from the very basic and important thing that, perhaps, we usually forget of how important it is. Let’s say about time. I really love how the writer highlights the importance of being on time. As someone who is always on time and hate making people wait, I whole heartedly wish Indonesian people READ this. Being on time doesn’t mean that we have MUCH time but because we RESPECT others. Please, know the difference.

In the next chapters, I start feeling this book quite interesting. I used to think this book will talk mostly about the steps and the skills (technical factors) of the youth for this era but it turns out that this is giving insights about how the habit shapes us, especially for the youth. The writer, Juhyung Kim, says to build a habit in the age of 20 ish other than 3 (?) years old or the kid’s age. I totally agree? I mean, people often say we have to build the habit since the kids but how do we know that our habit is aligned with our future if we haven’t even known what our dream is? Also, Juhyung Kim, reminds us about how the importance of managing the relationship with family & friends, constantly making me look miserable of how incapable am I in maintaining the relationship, even with myself?

Who thought I would be impressed with the content? You Guys out there, reading this book will not make you automatically successful but rather than that, it makes you appreciate your youth by doing the best. At least, you will not have a regretful feeling in the future, in the worst scenario that you do not make it. The quotes here ARE TRULY relatable. I read many quotes from the self-development book but the quotes here really makes me thinking and contemplating. However, I still do not like the title (7,5/10). 

 Pic source: here

 

After watching the movie adaption, I had this tendency to read the book version, especially after watching the bad review of the film which at first, I found a weird thing at the fact that the majority of the film critics are mostly good. I had this hard time choosing between the English version or the Indonesian version due to these reasons:

1. This is a classic novel means it has some hard vocabulary. Back in 2020 when I purchased Oliver Twist (a classic novel), I gave up after some pages just because it stressed me out to understand each sentence. 

2. If I buy the Indonesian version, I have to prepare the feeling of the bit forces between the casual and formal language. Not to mention the misspelled. 

However, after thinking for a long time, I finally chose the Indonesian version one :) Yeay

This book is talking about a March family with four daughters in which each of the girls has a different personality that could complement each other. Meg, the oldest is described as the beauty in the family, has fair skin, and has this willingness to be a lady surrounded by luxury goods, and she loves attending the party. Joe, the second is described as brave, stubborn, smart, tomboyish, and not your typical type of girl in that era but she cares and willing to sacrifice for her family (somehow, I mistook Joe as the oldest. Sorry Meg). Beth, the third is described as the musical girl who loves to take care of the dolls, and very very shy. She is closed to Joe the most. And Amy, the youngest is described as an artist, annoying, talkative, and loves jewelry. They live with Marmee (their mother) and Hanna (the keeper). 

The early chapter is highlighting the characters and relationship of each figure. You will not find any complicated plot as this is basically talking about the daily lives of commoners. The pace is slow and I always try to find the early problem as I think the plot is very flat. Even it has a slow pace, I kind of enjoy it as I imagine how to live with many girls in a house with no man. However, I could not stand the chapter that shows the drama description. I think it is too long, more than three pages that I found boring. In almost the end chapter, I finally found the problem that makes me more interested. My favorite chapter is chapter eight when Joe regretted her action that almost makes Amy killed. The scene between Marmee and Joe is very beautiful when Marmee told Joe that she has the same characters to control the emotion as Joe but slowly she could eliminate it for almost 40 years. Everything takes to process and time :( I feel so related and it reminds me of how my characters also developed progressively. 

I used to think, "Why I do not find the problem almost in the mid of the pages," that I just found out it has two volumes, the first is Little Women and the second is the Good Wives. I feel so dumb, if only I knew earlier, I would buy the second book as well :/ 

Overall, I enjoy reading this book but I can not lie that the Indonesian translation is so hung up like the translator could not determine the language style. And so many misspelled that I really disappointed. This makes me want to buy the English version, though. If you want to read a book with a kind of flat plot with focuses more on the characters and relationships within the family, this is the book (8/10).

 

Onward, another typical of Disney x Pixar movie that showcases the relationship within the characters. The scene was opened with a brief history of the magic world that was slowly forgotten by people due to the advance of technology. There is a family that consists of three people, the mother, the first son (Barley), and the youngest (Ian). Barley, a careless, noisy, and short thinking kind of brother while Ian is constrained, careful, and tend to think a lot. They obviously have quite opposite characters.   

On Ian's 16 birthday, he gets a present from his father who had passed away. Surprisingly, the present is a magic stick (with the diamond?) that should be cast to awake his dead father for 24 hours. Due to the lack of magic knowledge, Ian only could awake the lower part (the legs and hip) of his father's body. So instead, he has to find a way aka look for the diamond. The adventure begins. My favorite scene is when Ian crosses the invisible bridge roped off by Barley to assure his safety to not fall but it breaks without Ian's concern in the second half. Such a tense scene, I love how it shows the trust of each other and how Barley overcome his worries without showing it to Ian. It is not easy, I guess. There is also one scene when Ian let Barley replace him to talk to his father before him gone. The emotions and sincerity of Ian hit me hard. We know he really wants to meet or just even stare at his father for a moment, knowing that he never interacted before. Instead, he let Barley who basically had known and felt the warmness of his childhood with him. I cried so much because of this scene. 

This movie may not be having a really high score or even many of the reviewers feel a bit disappointed knowing the fact that they always compare to Coco or Inside Out. I agree, this movie is not as good as Coco but I still feel enjoying it so much.

a. Animations, I would give 8 as for Pixar standard, I know it could be better. 

b. Storyline, I would give 7,8. It's very enjoyable but there are some missing points. Also, the transition from the real world that changed to the magical world is a bit rushy. 

c. Characters, I would give 8. It's typical, unsurprising, but it's still given me the feeling. I just really love the character's development of both Ian and Barley. 

d. Screenplay, I would give 7. Disney x Pixar has a slightly different type of screenplay while Pixar is more matured, I guess. 

e. Music, I would give 7. It's good but forgettable. 

Pixar never failed to make me cry, no exception for Onward. I started crying when Barley sacrifices his beloved car crashed to save both of them and how Ian let Barley meet their father for the last time. It's a pure brotherhood love. 

I was officially moved to Procurement Engineering in January 2020, specifically in Import Purchasing. I had no idea and felt unpleasant knowing it required administration skill which I thought I was not capable of and a lowkey hate administration process. After experiencing it as a real procurement, I started to enjoy it but to be honest, I still lack knowledge on it. I decided to join Procurement Management Training by Kaweroo Institute. These are my impressions:

Hope you are able to understand it

 
I have been quite happy for these past days because I could bring a woman I adored so much to my community to share. Not disappointing, she delivers the presentation really well. At first, I was so nervous to text her because I was afraid, literally. You know when you approach your respected figure makes you quite nervous and over think whether you did the right thing or totally failed. I learnt so much when I approached her, and thanks to my leader for reminding me to be more decisive and know exactly what I want. "It's brainstorming and not a one sided decision and you have to have the power to control your event. Remember, you are the aggregator of this event, you own this. Don't only say yes because you respect her/him. "Brainstorming and negotiating is a key".

This book is actually a book that I postponed to read since I am not sure whether I do really want to read a kid fantasy book or not. I was in a dilemma as I did not want to buy a book that left unread (Cosmos says Hi). By weighting out and thinking in a moment, I decided to buy this book. Oh, finally.

This book is talking about the adventure of Little Prince who traveled from one planet to other planets and ended up stepping off the Earth and meeting with a pilot who crashed his aeroplane in the middle of the desert. It gives me some lessons and insights about the difference of thinking by adults and kids. Adults' thinking is using logic while kids are mostly using their imaginations. I am not sure but somehow, this book kind of criticizes the adults at how firm and boring their way of thinking is. I like how plain the dialogue between Little Prince and the Inhabitant of each planet is. It shows how desperate and sucky it is to be an adult who mostly thinks everything is straight and stiff (Yes, on becoming an adult is terrifying). My favorite chapter is chapter 10 when the Little Prince met with a king. It teaches me how to be wise and bastard at the same time, really. "One must demand of each and every one what he or she is capable of. Authority is first and foremost based on reason." 

Foremost, the important part is when adults looked down on the character's drawing (who is now being a pilot) that he had to give up on becoming a painter in future and look for another profession, a pilot. I mean, how an adult's thinking can lead the children's thought of being incapable of something that he/she just starts to learn. It's obviously not right. As humans, we must let children explore more, not giving them a limit or crashing their dreams off when they did not even begin.

The book is very cheap, it costs around 55,000 IDR. It's worth trying to grab this book and enjoy the excitement and pure feeling of the writer's style and point of view.

I do not know if writing this on a blog actually works as I have been doing since years ago but never got a real result. However, let's make it work this time (pointed at myself). My resolutions for 2020 and how to achieve it:

1. Read more. I read for like 11 books this year. I know it is less compared to the others. However, I am proud of myself. I want to read more in 2020 > 11 books, hopefully. I found some preloved English book accounts that sell various good books (I bought Frankly In Love and the Life Changing Magic of Tidying and those are in good condition). I may look up and buy from it again. Furthermore, I want to watch some booktube contents to give me insight into what books I should read.

2. Listen to Podcast/Islamic speech more. Before going to work or after subuh, I should play Inspigo or Podcast to enrich my knowledge on some certain topics, especially general knowledge, career wise, and Islamic topics.

3. Increase my English ability both in writing and speaking. I should rewrite a written post from some English blogs (at least twice in a week) and join Britzone class and Toastmaster meeting more (at least twice in a month).

4. Start learning Mandarin. I can learn from youtube and Duolingo. I should prepare my notes to focus on it.

5. Salat on time and read the Quran. It is so difficult but I will try my best. 

6. Find ways to increase my income like writing on IDN or whatever (I am still thinking though).

7. Save more. I have to at least save 1 million IDR a month if there is no urgent need. I have to think more before purchasing something.

8. Tidy up. I must clean my room everyday and arrange my stuff orderly. Sunday is a maintenance day.

9. Go traveling. I want to try solo traveling. Hence, I have to save up more.

10. Start joining Yoga or something else like running or just dance or whatever as long as I can move my body.

I think that's enough. However, a thing I wish I can erase is rebahan (laying on bed for a long time) and playing Instagram. Let's not be a narcissistic person.