A REGRET
07.47
Most people, honestly, I am sure, they
have at least a regret in their lives. Like “If only I bla la bla………… It would
not end up like this”. I actually have many regrets in my life, one of them is
letting my friend to take a scholarship in Iran. It was sort of complicated story though and
I hope I am wrong about this. I had a male friend in the early days of
college whom I like to joking with. He was nice, just his voice was somehow
annoying. We were in team together in a group practicum and he was so nerdy and
diligent. I used to borrow some of his books since he liked purchasing and
collecting subject books. Someday he said to me, “Rosa, I get a scholarship.”
And I was like, “Woahhh, that is very cool of you. What kind of scholarship by
the way?” He replied, “I get a scholarship from the Iran government but I think
I will not accept it.” As a scholarship hunter that time, of course I could not
stand with him, “But why? Why are you such an ungrateful? Hundreds of people
out there are willing to take it but you are simply declining it? What is wrong
with you?” And he did not respond me.
In the sophomore year, we coincidentally were
in the same class and we just talked about some things until a few weeks later,
he never attended classes. I might a bit worry, it was not his habit to skip
the classes without permission. One of my friends, all of a sudden, told me
that he took his scholarship and went to Iran without telling the rest of his
friends, including me. Of course, as a friend even though we were only a year
friend, I feel so betrayed. How did he leave without telling the others? I was
trying to contact him but it was so hard, did he want to cut people around him
or what? Luckily in the next days, I could contact him through Whatssap.
“Why are you so cruel, leaving for Iran?”
“You ever said to me to not to throw the
chance away, have not you? I did like what you said to me.”
“Yeah I know, but leaving without telling?”
“I am sorry, there was a long story of it.”
And yeah, it was the last chance to contact
him since he was back, being a – could not be contacted person- again. One day, I met
with his relative who was being in the same organization with me. She told me
about Syiah and I was so shocked after hearing the fact. I just knew, that
time, Syiah is an extremist and I thought Syiah did not follow the Islamic
rules, or simply, here I said that they are not Muslim. I mean, what kind of
Muslim who downgraded the Prophet Muhammad PBUH’s companions except Ali? They
accused Aishah ra as an adulterer and many more. They even let their followers
to murder the Muslim Sunni by saying it was not sin? And Iran is the home base.
I was doomed, did I send my friend to become the Syiah follower? I was in regretful for
the whole time, furthermore when I tried to contact him, I end up being sad and
mad. He was so hard to keep contact with. I gave up.
One day, without telling me or the others
like usual, all of a sudden, he came to Malang and appeared in my college.
Unfortunately, I already went to my kost. My friends were in bursting of
unbelievable feeling. My friends said that he was looking for me but I could not
come back since I was so tired. In the night, he came to my kost with my other
friends. I was so mad and told him to not ignoring his friends in Indonesia. I
asked, “You do not join with Syiah, do you?” He did not respond, just a smile.
I could not ask any further, I did not know that his gestures indicated whether
it means he joined Syiah or not. In the previous day, he came back to Surabaya.
Until now, each time I hear the news of
Syrian genocide, I cannot believe that I have a contribution to make it heppens. I
mean, if he really did join it (Naudzubillah)
just how many sins that I would get? I am so pissed off Syiah but I cannot do
something for the Syrian people except a pray. If only I knew that time about
Syiah, I would not say that thing to him. I am praying now that he will never
joined with Syiah. Either way, I was doomed and will always be regretful for my
whole life. Intinya kata Ust. Khalid, "Jika kamu menjadi faktor dalam perbuatan jelek atau baik, maka dosa atau pahala akan terus mengalir di dalam dirimu." ................................................... DID THAT MEAN I SEND MYSELF TO THE HELL????????
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